Friday, November 14, 2008
as i was walking to the mrt today... i juz felt this heaviness in me.. dont realli know what it's for...
was it the rainy weather that made me wanna rest more?
was it the tough project that im doing now?
was it my fatigue?
was it cuz i was a lil late in meeting my bestie for her bdae lunch?
was it cuz im starting to ponder about life and future?
as i walked on.. i passed a primary school.. although no kids were out in the rain.. i juz heard innocent laughters.. the fun of school..
was it cuz i missed school? NO WAY!
i guess it was cuz i missed the carefree days...
the pam now is busy... busy till she wants to rest but her mind is still active.. and upon lyin on the bed - she arrives at dreamland international airport..
i start to wonder.. what do i want in life?
i realized im starting to want more out of my job..
i wanna do well.. i want to be as capable as my other peers in the dept..
i wanna stay strong and not fall during the difficult times ahead with the new boss in the picture..
i want to be "office-smart"
sounds really corny.. but yes.. it is darn impt! cuz.. it's only thru that then you could sail thru your working life pretty smoothly..
as bestie turns 23 too... i wonder what lies ahead of us.. the us(me and bestie) 10yrs ago was juz the cheerful us.. wondering how we will look like 10yrs later.. and where in the world we'll be..
although i didnt get my dreams of being a lawyer or a cabin crew.. i got a nice job.. nice seat in office.. not exactly fantastic pay - but something i live in comfort with.. nice colleagues...
i should be contented ritey?
i am in some aspects of my life.. and yet im not in other...
am i too greedy?
or... am i juz barking up the wrong trees?
@ 12:45:00 am
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